Why did I start this blog? Because I have nobody to talk to about the complexities of my romantic and sexual relationships, my desires and fantasies, and my opinions on monogamy, marriage, and other neat little labels that attempt to define relationships in black and white terms.
I am currently in a sexually dead relationship in which the concept of monogamy has always been assumed but not outwardly discussed much. I have never been in an open or polyamorous relationship, but I am curious and wonder if such relationships may work better for me in future.
I am probably bisexual, but I have never used that term to define my sexuality. I identify more with Morrissey when he said, “People are just sexual.”
I have been frustrated with sexuality and relationships since I was a teenager because I’ve never known any role models whom I can identify and say “They have an ideal relationship!” I don’t believe in marriage. I don’t believe in long-term monogamy. I am open to falling in love or lust with anyone I am attracted to. I believe that sexuality moves on a continuum throughout one’s life and I wish more people were open to the possibilities. I remain optimistic that one can be happy across one’s lifetime with a fluid sexuality and a number of relationships that may be non-traditional or evolving as long as one is honest with one’s self and one’s partner(s). Perhaps that is the ultimate challenge to attain happiness and fulfillment in romantic and sexual relationships and, of course, in life.
I don’t want any trouble, I just want to find a way home.
